What the fuck is the point of life? Day by day I sit here and go through the same pathetic excuse for life and day by day I get closer to the edge of just fucking snapping at eveyrone..

What's so pathetic about it? Everything..And for those of you who might read and and think "stupid teenager", FUCK YOU! Why don't you grow out of your fucking lamer shell and think about your own life for a couple minutes? I go everyday with so much shit that'd make you go insane, or suicide...I like the sound of the latter.

When I say everything I mean literally everything, from waking up to crying myself to sleep at night. I wake up already in the low because I have to face another day and I KNOW it will just end up like the rest of my pathetic excuse of a life. I wake up, scavenge for food then go to school...People think I'm fine because I don't enjoy showing how I feel, weak, ya know? No, you don't.

I have so called 'friends' who act like they care about things that don't even bother me.. "dude, that sucks." really? How about you open your eyes to the bigger picture? I can handle rejection and denial..I can handle losing a friend or two..Hell, I can even take a joke - amazing isn't it? But sooner or later it all adds up and starts to work on my nerves.

It's the stress I can't take, that's what gets to me. Recently (Sometime in the three AM hour) I woke up to my mother talking to herself and seeing things, and she was shaking horribly. She didn't know where she was (her own home) or even recognize me! I'm her oldest son for God sakes...What if she ends up doing something stupid..What if whatever is going on gets serious and she harms herself..Dies..

I can't even go to anyone for help because she yells and screams every time I even suggest the idea of help, and she threatens to hit me if I tell our family. What do I do? I love my mom..But I don't want her angry at me, even if it'd help her..

Then there's girls..-sigh-..I know, it's a cliche and controversial topic, yes? But seriously, if you were half as emotional as I am than you'd understand a bit more..Girls I like...The girl I love doesn't even notice me while she runs around with her boytoy..Even if she says she does I very much highly doubt she does.

Life sucks, doesn't it? "Oh, it's a temporary problem" actually, no, it isn't. wake up buddy!! Children, teens, even adults (yessir, the high-and-mighties as well) go through this shit, no point in hiding it..Us kids and teens notice your problems as well.

Besides that I have no parental figures in life because my parents never pay attention to me, always too busy with other things, ha.

What's worse is I have a two year old brother and live by myself with my mother and him..What if I leave for an hour or so and she has another fit like she did earlier today and ends up risking his life as well as hers? It's so confusing...

HELP....